There Really Are No Words

It is no secret that our family has been going through some serious financial hardships due to mine and Keith's health. Since August, we have been totally dependent upon gifts from friends and family. There is no doubt we could have made it without them. I cannot begin to imagine how life would be right now if it were not for the true love of angels.

Lately, our family has received more gifts than we deserve. Christmas gifts for the kids, food baskets, clothes, gas money...we have not done without. Today, we were absolutely blown away by the generosity of our friends. Keith asked me how we were ever going to repay everyone for the love, kindness and support they have given us over the past few months. I tried to come up with an answer in words, but adequate words cannot be found. There really are no words to describe how grateful we are. The only answer I could fathom was this...actions speak louder than words.

The only way I know how to possibly ever thank God and those ministers that He has placed in our path is to honor Him in all that we say and do. Keith and I are not in a position to "throw in the towel." We must keep the faith and keep trusting. It is not our place to question this path, but rather we are to accept it and while doing so, "honor the Lord our God."

I accept that this is our path. Though times it is definitely exhausting, I accept that "this too shall pass." Whether it be here in "my time on earth" or  if it be when I see Jesus face to face, this most daunting task that He has given me WILL be over. He will get the glory of this story one way or the other. It may be my eternal praises when I get to Heaven, or it may just be that He gets the glory in my earthly time, and the only way for that to happen is for me to be obedient is me for to live as a "living sacrifice."

"I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service." Romans 12:1

This is what we are instructed to do anyway. Living upright is the least we can do for God who saves us from an eternal death in hell; it is "our reasonable service." I don't always make the best decisions or say the right things, but I do try to live intentionally for God. That is all I know how to do. That is the only way I know how to honor God and to thank those that are so generous with their lives.

I will never be able to repay the love, kindness, and yes, financial gifts that have been poured out to me and mine. There are some things that cannot be repaid. And I know without a shadow of doubt that the gifts that have come my way are backed with the love of God and true heart. I CANNOT repay that. But, but, but... I CAN continue trusting God and His promises and by loving others.

"Let Your mercies come also to me, O Lord---Your salvation according to Your Word. So shall I have an answer for him who reproaches me, for I trust in Your Word. And take not the word of truth utterly not out of my mouth, for I have hoped in Your ordinances. So shall I keep Your law continually, forever and ever. And I will walk at liberty, for I seek Your precepts. I will speak of Your testimonies also before kings, and will not be ashamed. And I will delight myself in Your commandments, which I love. My hands will I will lift up to Your commandments, which I love, and I will continue to meditate on your statutes." Psalm 119: 41-48

Since winning the lottery is most likely not in the cards for me and Publisher's Clearing House is not knocking on my door with balloons and big fat honking check, I can only give what I have, and that is my life and my testimony of the Lord's goodness and mercies on that life. This old world can take a everything from me, but it cannot take my testimony about my God.